When I Told My Body I Loved Her

An Unspoken Letter from the Body

I awoke around 4 a.m.

My right leg was hurting enough to wake me from my side..

I turned over on my back and innately knew what to do.. I simply observed myself..

I started placing my hands on the places that wanted to speak..

Chest, stomach, hips, sacral, root.. then womb..

There was so much in the womb that I will share at another time..

But I told it that I wanted to tell it something.. my body.. something that I may not have said before.. I said, "I love you!".. and I apologized for not saying it more often.. and not knowing if I had ever truly said it before..

I know that it heard me..

My body began to talk..

It was so eager.. and had so much to say.. but what I heard were things these places needed to hear..

"It's safe to be female."

"You don’t have to carry societal expectations because you were born female."

"You don’t have to hide."

'Your body didn't betray you."

"You can be seen, and you can be heard."

"It's safe to be different."

"I'm sorry for abandoning you."

"I'm sorry for putting more value in others than I did you."

"I'm sorry for not speaking up for you."

I know that I merely scratched the surface in this window of dawn..

But it has opened a door..

And the fire returned in this medicine..

And I look forward to becoming more intimate with my body's voice and it's unspoken letters..

And releasing those moments frozen in a gasp..

As I lay in the bed trying to go back to sleep, I saw myself holding a swaddled baby.. I was holding me as a newborn.. seeing her the way God saw her.. in her divinity.. in that unconditional light.. nothing embedded in her dewey,  human lattice.. only inexplicable love..

I am so grateful that I listened to my inner guidance that was triggered when I first heard the word, "fascia".. and was open when a brief meditation created my initial connection and conversation with my fascia, my body, and that little girl that needed to speak..

I know now that I do not have to move through this life alone inside myself.

I have a companion beneath the skin.

A living web that has carried me, listened with me, protected me, and waited for me to remember.

And now, I am listening back.

DeAn'Na - Keeper of the Lantern 🏮✨️

A visual reflection of the dawn moment when I told my body, “I love you,” and began listening to what it had been waiting to say.